hokey pokey

2009-08-02T06:40:00.000-07:00

Man it's been a long time since I blogged and I miss it so much:)okay lastest news,5items pass and 2.4km was bad.I will do better next week!Friday had Malay intensive and it was a killer but at least cikgu said she was proud of those who came.BECAUSE of Malay intensive,I missed jamming with the losers:)they had a very productive time and I missed it all.oh wells.now I'm sick,gastric flu:( I shit every hour and my temperature is 38.8 degrees.that's all for now.will continue tomorrow.mc on Monday!!!

deep down

2009-06-26T08:30:00.000-07:00

you stood me up and left me waiting.i guess you never did and never will change.people still put up with your little act and i guess you got them under your spell.im holding on to the friendship im wishing for but i guess the word friendship does not exist to you since all of yours are mainly innocent people waiting to be backstabed by you.i tried to be your friend but all my efforts crushed.

screaming bluck!

2009-06-26T08:19:00.000-07:00

im 2 days away from the start of school and not half my homework is done and its really frustrating because im too lazy to do it.stupid work.i mean whats the point of holidays when most of the time i use my lazing time to do school work.enough of that i didnt really enjoy my holidays other than a week of fun and a few days here and there to chill with my friends.yesterday watched transformers and it was the most amazing movie so far...other than a few of others.today i cramped school work and i am still not half done.omg!total stress and i found that i have amaths on monday................urh!what-ev-va!my gosh!!!!!!!i hate school and i wish school would be a bit less uptight.now i feel stupid blogging instead of doing homework!
bluck!!!!!

2009-06-23T08:32:00.000-07:00

8days away and still wanting more

2009-06-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

omg my holiday was so fun i have no idea where to start but i will anyways.hah.so the three best thing i did was cave trekking,roller coaster-ing and sightseeing.note:if you have a super imaginative mind and a scared soul do not go into the cave.but the cave was totally awesome.experiencing the darkness and the coolness of the cave's atmosphere was a very over-whelming.did i spell that right?then the rollercoaster was amazing.i never thought i would go on one but there you go i did it!yayay!the best thing was i had the courage to take it twice:)im so happy.thanks amirul aiman aimi!cameron highland was really cooling even with the sun.the air was just the best!camwhored alot by myself because no one wanted to take with me unless i put the camera infront of their faces.upload them later:):):):):)anyways missing my cousins and somewhat second cousins alot.had fun during the trip.thanks for inviting me along!

school

2009-06-23T08:08:00.000-07:00

nowadays its like school is starting and its so not cool to start studying again and to know that its getting closer to final years exam and then the next thing you know its olevels.so not what i want to deal with right now.i guess i always thought being in secondary school would be alot more fun and less stressful.i was right about the fun but so wrong about the stress and i think i might be getting sick of secondary life maybe because the fun is ending or maybe it has already ended.

dot dash

2009-05-22T18:46:00.000-07:00

ij fiesta was great.there were some potential losers out there who kick and abuse my class ghosts.losers!and there were vulgar words coming out from people's mouth.but overal it was fun.i dont really have much comment about ij fiesta because my class didnt really have time to play other games.i really love my class.we are so bonded.our class tee rocks too!there were alot of class effort put in into ij fiesta and 3/8,you guys rocks!!!thats all now.dont have time to continue.tata..

zee avi's story of a bitter heart

2009-05-13T09:05:00.000-07:00

sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground, children spinning around till they fall down down down,
i wait for you its been two hours now your still somewhere in town your dinners getting cold i rest my case you are always this late,
and you know how much i hate waiting around round round, bitter heart bitter heart tries to keep it all inside, bitter heart bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide bitter heart my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
bitter heart bitter heart of mine and then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday so tell me whats her name. doo doo da dum doo doo da dum doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum da da da da dum da da da da dum da da da da dum. (musical break) Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide, bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile, bitter heart, bitter heart of mine... of mine... of mine... of mine... of mine.... of mine.

i still exist

2009-05-13T08:57:00.000-07:00

I was so in love with you
There was nothing I could do
Wouldn't give me the time of day
Now you wanna be with me
You say you wanna be with me

You said I was the best
Gave your love out to the rest
There was nothing I could say
But now it's going good for me
You say you wanna be with me
Now

Yeah, you're telling me that I am where it's at
But I ain't having none of that....

[Chorus:]
Because I told you, you'd live to regret it,
and now I don't wanna make you feel bad,
But when it comes to me just forget it,
I'll be the best you never had,
You put me through so many emotions,
Now baby it's your turn for that,
'cause in your empty heart I have left a mark,
The best you never had.

No, No, No

You saw me as a friend,
Baby I don't want revenge,
But if you must know the truth,
What you didn't see in me
Reflects what you will never be now,
When you're telling me I was always the one,
I feel your desperation.

[Chorus]

Back rubs, good love, my stuff
That's what you missed out on
My touch... so much we could have
You miss,
My kiss,
My lips,
The love I had for you
Our song, so long

[Chorus x2]

Well I will always be the best you never had

The best you never had

shopping with no limits

2009-05-13T08:40:00.000-07:00

Had a sleepover at my house last week with michelle.we took embarassing photos,for us to see only(big secret)left for kl on friday afternoon and got there at 8 plus.spent time with mira and slept quite early:(next morning breakfast at tante nona's house.delicious!!!then shopping with the family.i shopped at forever 21 and etc.when for lunch at tante nona's house again and had some relaxation time at the reading corner which i fell asleep for awhile.when i woke up,it was shopping time.AGAIN!!!!on our way out of the huge house,izyan and family arrived!cheers!snatched izyan and when to Gardens and Midvalley Shopping Mall:Dhad dinner at tante nona's and abg danny sang a goodbye song to mira for her farewell.it was a cute song.ill post it up if i can.next morning mira left for penang to continue her studies for a year,duh!sad moment.farid sent izyan and i to tante nona's for breakfast and later that day went to tante nona's new house which is still in construction but the pool is ready:Dhave a long swim or rather dip in the pool.talked with abg danny about music.his cd is coming out soon*big whoops*later later later that day when shopping at One Utama Shopping Mall.my cousin from sji bought skinny jeans and top at topman.it looks hot!i said it not him.izyan bought jeans fron marks and spencer.i tried a top there and it was gorgeous but way to expensive so i put it back.nearly teared.dinner at tante nona's and watched football match too:)i was the only girl watching the match.go manchester united!it was 2-0.man united won!!!!yay.slept at kak farah's house and spent time with aydin before we all went to bed.he is super adorable!he is so into motorbikes.kawasaki,honda and etc.left the next morning for singapore.the trip seemed so short and i really mss everyone there.big hugs and loves to orang kl!

when time is not on your side

empty spaces

2009-05-07T19:28:00.000-07:00

When your life is going to fast,off the train tracks
I can slow it down, oh
just when you think your bout to turn backscared you might crash
I'll be your ground, oh

Oh when you feel your hearts guarded,
And you see the brakes started,
And when the clouds above Departed,
You'll be right here with me,
And when your tears are dry from crying,
And when the worlds turned silent,
So when the clouds above Departed,
You will be right here with me,
I will be right here with you
you'll be right here with me

walk by the bay

2009-05-07T19:09:00.000-07:00

day out with michelle to get id photos and just chill and walk around.we ate at mos burger in the morning and went to clarke quay and it was quite empty.there were so many nice experiences yesterday.so fun!!!!

2009-05-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

and part of me still believes

when you say you’re gonna stick around

and part of me still believes

we can find a way to work it out

but I know that we

tried everything we could try

so let's just say goodbye

forever

2009-05-05T23:24:00.000-07:00

when you're done and troubled

and you need a helping hand

and nothing is going right

keep your hands together

call my name out loud

and soon ill be knocking upon your door

you just call up my name and you know where ever i am

ill come right in to see you again

2009-05-05T23:21:00.000-07:00

you were everthing evrything that i wanted

we were meant to be,suppose to be but we lost it

all of our memories so close to me just fade away

all this time you were pretending

so much for my happy ending

past experience

2009-05-05T22:16:00.000-07:00

august 2005

10.06.05

the boy up close is daniel and the boy drinking is heikel.waiting for their kk check-up(:smiles up.smallest babies there at their age(:

its been so long

2009-05-05T21:44:00.000-07:00

its been two months without blogging and it feel okay because i can survive without the "wonderful joy of technology" *smilezz* i think technology has a bad vibe on me.when i use the computer it takes super long to load and i am super slow at messaging on the phone and dont even get me started on typing on the computer.maybe thats why i dont blog much.too slow to write out what i feel.i feel so stupid and slow.blah.
this month has been super emotional.many fun and memorable things happened and many super sad things happened too.i guess all this is the way of life.i've been very happy lately,besides the sad moments that happened.i miss so many things from last year and i dont know where to start to express what i miss so much.many of those things cant be brought back and those are the ones i miss the most.
firstly i miss 2/7,miss chua and miss wanne.i miss the surrounding of 2/7.secondly,i guess the friends that surrounded me last year.the people closest to me.many of which i drift apart from and many that still surrounds me.and the last one,for now,would be all the events that happened last year.miss them all.

06.05.09
geography paper today was the last paper for the week and i am so happy.its been raining these past few days in the morning.accidents on both morning .michelle and i are having a study sleepover at my house because she is helping me with geography.i miss having sleepovers with melissa.oh that reminds me.melissa and i made up this once a month mel and shaz day out since we are in separate class and not much time to hang out or spend time to chat and gossip.hah.i miss her alot.i miss hanging with illya too.i shall ask her out to movies during june holidays.i have so much things i want to do after exams.shopping,day-out trips,movie marathons,sleepovers,jogging marathons(haha),choking on junk food and the list continues.wooh!but i need *kachingzz* first.

A hunky matinee idol doomed to play dentists and teachers.

sea shells and osyters

2009-03-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

danisha binte mohammad robani

seafood branch on sunday was delicious and it made me gain alot of wait.go spread the word!anyways,there were so much delicious food there i just couldnt resist.wowowowowowow.my cousin also just gave birth last week and her daughter is beautiful.prettypretty.photos up later.school this week was okay.nothing much stressful.i pass amaths.happuy happy man!but not well enough.i made alot of new bestfriends.i miss mel and eugenia.i miss you guys so much!we're fading apart people.what happened to not fading?miss you bitches out there.

went for lunch with mich,rach2,anne,sheryl.the rachs,mich and anne went for underwear shopping for awhile while sheryl and i had a talk.so WOW.its so weird.sheryl you rock babe and you were hilarious.thanks for listening out and advicing.go phua!!!mich i know what you're going through so dunt think much about it alrights.im sure everthing will turn out okay.you're faithful and im sure god will make it up to you.illya,dance hard alright!im supporting you all the way babe!

2009-03-11T01:53:00.000-07:00

"i should get over the fact that she's not over the fact that i am over the fact,"
adviced by michelle poon mei yi,the great

school's been great and my test marks this year has been improving but im not satisfied yet.i have been taking the train home alone on tuesdays,wednesdays and fridays because mel's busy on those days.michelle's been such a dope.she shaved her muffin and it was pokey.she bought new insides and she was/is loving it.i love that dope.illya is as always being illya...sitting next to her is the best.my class is the bomb!3/8 rocks!!!our class board is becoming more mature and im so proud.rachael lye is hilarious.she and her phineas and ferb theme song!haha going to lunch with mich,rachel,rachael,anne and others tomorrow.too bad illya cant go.i want to pierce my ears,again,during school hols with poon and on my birthday too.i cant wait for hols,im going to study and sleep alot!

i met funky monkey on monday with mel.i miss her soooo much.its been 6 long months since i last saw her and i miss her so so so much!i want to see more often to catch up on things.she has a little secret and she doesnt want to tell me the full story.

a quiz i created

2009-02-14T07:18:00.000-08:00

1.Nowadays,what do i normally drink?

(a)milo

(b)vitasoy

(c)plain water

(d)coloured drinks

2.Favourite stuff toy animal?

(a)tweety bird

(b)frog

(c)bear

(d)cookie monster

3.Favourite colours?

(a)orange,purple,black

(b)yellow,red,green

(c)black,blue,green

(d)pink,purple,black

4.Why do i hate Valentine's day?

(a)its stupid

(b)a commercial day to sell stupid love items at a higher price

(c)muslims are not allowed to celebrate

(d)all of the above

5.Favourite brand of chocolate?

(a)hershey's

(b)cadbury

(c)m&ms

(d)kinder bueno

6.Favourite movie?

(a)Bride Wars

(b)Spartans

(c)Twilight

(d)Awake

7.People most closest to me?

(a)melissa,illya,rachael lye

(b)michelle,rachel,illya

(c)eugenia,melissa,michelle

(d)melissa,michelle,illya

8.Favourite song?

(a)Don't forget-Demi Lavato

(b)Live your life-T.I feat Rihanna

(c)Make it mine-Jason Mraz

(d)On the line-Demi Lavato

9.Favourite things in my bedroom.

(a)bed&mirror

(b)mirror& table

(c)table&wall of photos

(d)wall of photos&bed

10.What shampoo do i use?

(a)herbal essence

(b)tea tree,alberto balsam

(c)sunsilk

(d)pantene

2009-02-14T06:51:00.000-08:00

hello my fellow readers.i know i havent been updating and i know its a bore....my week was a mess.monday was as usual.it was mostly slackish.tuesday was a bore and i was super tired!wednesday i faced my fears and we had to stay back for class comm training and i found out we are going to be presented to the whole school on the 6march.embarrassing much!anyways other than that that day was tiring.thursday was worse.i had pe ,12 rounds around the track,and later we had class comm training.ohto add on my super tiring day ,i had tuition till 9plusplus!erh and my lack of sleep drag on till friday which practically killed me.BUT friday was the bomb!i came to school and received wonderful pretty daisy(flower) from rachel yong.its so nice!!!!the later i receive more gifts.its all for valentine's.i felt so bad for not giving anyone anything but i so had valentine's thats why and technically muslims are not allowed to celebrate.msjeoteo,mskuna,mrskhoo didnt come and we had a fire drill which thankfully interupted the lessons.haha.so my week was fun and i hope things will change from this week on.

2009-02-14T06:31:00.000-08:00

my new bestfriends plus eunice!

aren't they adorable.that is illya and

her younger brother illyas.

top:illya and the bottom,guess...

just what i needed.

2009-02-02T06:26:00.000-08:00

its been ages since i last blogged and its been dead and unvisited so im the only one reading/writing my pathetic blog.whatev!anyways i went shopping with mich and eug.it was fun and tiring.we walked alot.i accomplished more than i need too.i bought a wallet way under 30bucks(:i finally got my first sports bra,hope its comfortable(FROM COTTON ON BODY,$5) and i got a tee from cotton on,5 bucks.so in total i only spent $30.KACHINGZZZ.i say its good!we camwhored very little,maybe because we were busy shopping.i shall post up the pictures after this.its been forever since with eugenia and today was the best.i havent finish my malay and ss hwk.better start soon.thats all for now....

shaz.

.....................

2009-01-31T08:39:00.000-08:00

There's nothing I could say to you

Nothing I could ever do to make you see

What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried

Still you never said goodbye and now I know

How far you'd go

[Bridge:]I know I let you down But it's not like that now This time I'll never let you go [Chorus:]I will be, all that you want And gather myself together Cause you keep me from falling apart All my life, I'll be with you forever To get you through the day And make everything OK[Verse 2:]I thought that I had everything I didn't know what life could bring But now I see, honestly You're the one thing I got right The only one I let inside Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

[Bridge:]And if I let you down I'll turn it all around Cause I would never let you go

[Chorus]

[Ending bridge:]Cause without you I cant breathe I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave You're all I've got, you're all I want Yeah And without you I don't know what I'd do I can never, ever live a day without you Here with me, do you see,You're all I need

lost of thoughts

2009-01-31T08:21:00.000-08:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

highlights

2009-01-31T08:12:00.000-08:00

She's staring at me, I'm sitting wondering what she's thinking Ummm Nobody's talking, cause' talking just turns into screaming (Oooo) And now yes I'm yelling over her, she yelling over me,all that that means is neither of us are listening,and what's even worse, that we don't even remember why we're fighting So both of us are mad for nothing, (fighting for) nothing, (crying for) nothing, (oohh) When we won't let it go for nothing, (come back for) nothing,it should be nothingto a love like what we got oh babyI know some times it's gonna rain,But baby can we make up nowcause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)girl I don't want to go to bed, mad at you and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at meno I don't want to go to bed mad at you and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)Umm and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing(asking questions like you already know) hey we're fighting this war when both of us are losing (this ain't the way that love is supposed to go, whatever happened to working it out?) We fall into this place where you ain't backing down, and I ain't backing down,so what the hell do we do now?So both of us are mad for nothing, (fighting for)nothing, (crying for)nothing... (oohh)When we won't let it go for nothing,nothing,it should be nothingto a love like what we got oh babyI know some times it's gonna rain,But baby can we make up nowcause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)girl I don't want to go to bed mad at you and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at meno I don't want to go to bed mad at youand I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo)Oh baby this love ain't gone be perfect, (perfect perfect oh no)And just how good it's gonna be We can fuss and we can fight long as everything is alright between us before we go to sleep...Baby we're gonna be...Yah.... Baby....ohhhh....ohhhhI know some times it's gonna rain,But baby can we make up nowcause' I can't sleep through the pain (can't sleep through the pain)girl I don't want to go to bed mad at youand I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me no I don't want to go to bed mad at you and I don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh noo, nooo, noo)

2009-01-20T02:58:00.000-08:00

my day was hilarious.i guess no matter how suckish my day could ever get,ill always stay positive and happy.just because you're sick or you're being ignored or you got scolded so many times in a day,there is no reason why you should be all sad and down for right?talking about sickness,my poa teacher had a very good theory about being sick.here it goes.."Resting for a better tomorrow," by mrs irene tan.my classes today was quite slacking.i had a good run during hhf,too bad mich couldnt join,poa was easy and slow going,we had a lot of laughter during social studies.i irritated ms soh so much till she hit me with a book.recess pass by so fast,emaths was a bore,ms jt didnt come to teach us today for english so that one period was a slack and sheryl phua gave us a surprise visit and so did the she...whenever i smile at her she ignores me and when i dont she stares at me.SUPER BAD TIMING much!during malay,instead of having that compo test that i planned so hard on and it turns out i was teaching the class for the first 15mins of the lesson beacuse cikgu was tired and had a sore body and nobody listened to me.after school i stayed in class till my sister picked me up which was around 4plusplus.now im home and i have to do the geography group project alone.i never done a full slide alone before.im not sure if i can do it properly but i just try.rather something than nothing.
oh wells.missing dipe,burp machine,flutterby and barbie pup.

dont forget...

2009-01-17T23:00:00.000-08:00

Did you forget That I was even alive Did you forget Everything we ever had Did you forget Did you forget About me Did you regret Ever standing by my side Did you forget What we were feeling inside Now I'm left to forget About us But somewhere we went wrong We were once so strong Our love is like a song You can't forget it So now I guess This is where we have to stand Did you regret Ever holding my hand Never again Please don't forget Don't forget We had it all We were just about to fall Even more in love Than we were before I won't forget I won't forget About us But somewhere we went wrong We were once so strong Our love is like a song You can't forget it Somewhere we went wrong We were once so strong Our love is like a song You can't forget it At all And at last All the pictures have been burned And all the past Is just a lesson that we've learned I won't forget I won't forget us But somewhere we went wrong Our love is like a song But you won't sing along You've forgotten About us

on the line..

2009-01-17T22:47:00.000-08:00

[Demi]
I didn't wanna say 'I'm sorry'
For breaking us apart
[Joe]
I didn't wanna say 'It was my fault'
Even though I knew it was
[Demi]
I didn't wanna call you back
Cause I knew that I was wrong
[Demi and Joe]
Yeah I knew I was wrong

[Demi]
One in the same
Never to change
Our love was beautiful
[Demi and Joe]
We got it all
Destined to fall
Our love was tragical
[Joe]
Wanted to call
[Demi]
No need to fight
[Joe]
You know I wouldn't lie
[Demi and Joe]
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

[Demi]
Listen baby
[Nick]
Never would have said 'Forever'
If I knew it'd end so fast
[Demi]
Why did you say 'I love you'
If you knew it that it wouldn't last
[Nick]
Baby I just can't hear what your saying
The line is breaking up
[Demi]
Or is that just us?
Or is that just us?

[Demi and Joe]
One in the same
Never to change
Our love was beautiful
We got it all
Destined to fall
Our love was tragical
[Joe]
Wanted to call
[Demi]
No need to fight
[Joe]
You know I wouldn't lie
[Demi and Joe]
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

[Joe]
I try to call again
I get your mailbox
Like a letter left unread
[Demi]
Apologies are often open ended
[Demi and Joe]
But this one's better left unsaid

[Demi and Joe]
One in the same
Never to change
Our love was beautiful
We got it allDestined to fall
Our love was tragical
[Joe]
Wanted to call
[Demi]
No need to fight
[Joe]
You know I wouldn't lie
[Demi and Joe]
But tonight, we'll leave it on the line

picking up the pieces

2009-01-11T06:16:00.000-08:00

There is two things im worried about.1)Failing this year.2)parting from my friends.Anyways,my class this year roxxs!new fun classmates,rocking awesome teachers,etc.so far this week,i've been going straight home after school except friday and revising certain subjects.Amaths is tough and im trying my hardest to catch up and concentrate to understand.my weekends was fun.my mom bought my cousin the make you own bear thing.it wasnt really a bear beacause my cousin got a bunny instead and it is named penny.weird!Michelle is such a toots!with her firm butt and bruised elbow.i cant wait ti see her!love all you peeps out there!

Random Thoughtsss

2009-01-02T07:45:00.000-08:00

I made this up when i was bored:

PHAT(pronounce as fat)
Pretty Hot And Tempting.

OMG
Overly Mental Girls/Guys.

STM
Slow Talking Machine.

WTH
Whale Thunder Horns.

CNA
Constance Nagging Asshole.

LOL
Licking Open Lollipop.

ETC
Elegent Talking Cow.

More to come in the future!

the start of something new.

2009-01-02T07:32:00.000-08:00

It is the 2nd January 2009.The day school reopens for ij students.Today was fun but there were moments where my new teachers talk to us and it really hit me that i should really really study hard.i dunt care whether i dunt get to go or spend time with my friends as long as i pass my exams with all the time im sacrificing.
The girls and i plan to meet at 640am to walk to school together.Mel was the first to arrived and she looked nice with her fringe.Then i arrived and we chatted while waiting for the rest.Soon after Illya arrived and then Michelle.We were having the most hilarious morning.
Later in class i found out that there is only 15/16 people in our class.PA-THE-TIC!i know!The class was so huge and our class only took up 1/4 of the place.It was nice and spacious though.We got to know our form teacher,still cant remember her name,and all the other teachers subject after subject.
After school,we went out with our ex classmates for lunch.I MISS YOU ex 2/7-ners.I took the most random pictures and Mich taught me something new with my camera.THANKS BABE!Later we went notebook shoppig then headed home.
Im really thanking GOD for making today Friday.If it was i would be going bongcas!I will hopefully upload the random pictures soon.
tata
shazwana

A Whole New Begining

2009-01-01T04:34:00.000-08:00

School is begining.Its a new year,a new school,class,classmates,teachers,So many things are in my head.This year must be a different year.I must change how i study and time i spend outside school.I must really concentrate this year,no distractions.Homework must be done before the due date.Its easier said than done so im going to try my very hardest .MUST!

thoughts

2009-01-01T04:29:00.000-08:00

What we share was not Love

nor was it Lust

it was just a minor Crush.

As it was

2008-12-30T21:26:00.000-08:00

I know we haven't spoken for a while

But I was thinkin bout you

And it kinda made me smile

So many things to say

And I'll put em in a letter

Thought it might be easier

The words might come out better

How's your mother, how's your little brother?

Does he still look just like you?

So many things I wanna know the answers to

Wish I could press rewind

And rewrite every line

To the story of me and you

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried

To get you out my mind

But it don't get no better

As each day goes by

And I'm lost and confused

I've got nothin to lose

Hope to hear from you soon

P.S. I'm still not over you

Still not over you

Christmas Day

2008-12-25T20:26:00.000-08:00

Unlike everyone who is celebrating christmas today,my family(together with my grandmother and my aunts family)went out to the farm area around kranji/choachukang.First stop we visit this vegetable farm.I think we spend an hour plus there.There was this bird that made this super loud noise.It also could say hello and i taught it how to say FUYOH.It was hilarious.There was also big like really super huge fishes.Its lenght is longer than me.We met my cousin there with his daughter,Iman.She is sooo cute!
Later we went to some place where there were goats,bull frogs and prawn fishing.It stinks like hell,it was the goats fault.Then we went to yishun for lunch before heading to my aunt's house to hang out.We watched two malay movies.It was so stupid!Hilarious stupid.Anyways,when home and slept at 12am.
Other people would still be awake at that time,partying and celebrating.It makes sense since i dunt celebrate christmas.haha.

mayhem monday

2008-12-22T20:32:00.000-08:00

My cousin is staying over so i brought her to lot 1 for breakfast and to just walk around.We went to the library and i found out i could have borrowed more books so i feel so shitty right now....Later we went around lot 1 to look for tuition centres for my cousin.Then we went to Limbang to get stationaries and then to Yew tee community centre to search for more tuition centressss.Afterwards we made a quick stop to kak ika's house.Watched movies and played monopoly!Later we got home and eat.

WHAT I BOUGHT SINCE I GOT CASH!!!!!

2008-12-20T07:28:00.000-08:00

Camera
8GB Thumbdrive
Full length Mirror
Ikea mini boxes
Adidas school shoe
Mini Mickey mouse coin pouch

Six wonderful items.Its going to be a wonderful year next year,i'll pray.I took random pictures today with my new camera.Hopefully i'll post it up soon so you can see what wonderful things i saw today.I want a nice stuff toy keychain for my school bag next year.I would like it to be a cute monster or one of the little miss or mr men or tweety bird or anything cute.

Thats all.goodnights.

xoxoxo,

shazwana

empty thoughts.

2008-12-16T20:02:00.000-08:00

Holidays have been sucking so far but im lucky that there's no homework.I finally watched 90210 since last tuesday.I want to curl my hair or at least do something new with it.I scared for the first day of school.New class,new classmates,new new new.I hate changes and but sometimes its for the best.you'll never know right.

Build over time

2008-12-16T00:13:00.000-08:00

I relise how my friendship with melissa has built over the years we have been friends and that not once we have fought.There was misunderstandings but never did we fight.Isnt that cool?Thats what true friends are.I love melissa and no matter what happens,we will always be friends no matter what!

2008-12-15T23:35:00.000-08:00

Malaysia Trip 2007 and 2008.Fun Times!

space out

2008-12-15T04:12:00.000-08:00

Freaky Fact of the day:

Donald Duck comicswere once banned in Finland because Donald Duck does not

wear pants.

Tour of Northpoint with Melissa.Met wak jun,wak ratnoh and haikel.

Haikel:kakak kakak kakak kakak

Me:ehk Haikel!Wak jun!!!

Then i followed Mel cut her hair and then she sent me to the mrt station.

Home.Slept.TV.Read.Blogged.

xoxoxo

shazwana

2008-12-15T03:48:00.000-08:00

"Gimme Gimme Gimme (A Man After Midnight)"

Half past twelve

And I'm watching the late show in my flat all alone

How I hate to spend the evening on my own

Autumn winds

Blowing outside my window as I look around the room

And it makes me so depressed to see the gloom

there's not a soul out thereno one to hear my prayer

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight

Won't somebody help me chase the shadows away

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight

Take me through the darkness to the break of the day

Movie stars

Find the end of the rainbow, with a fortune to win

It's so different from the world I'm living in

Tired of T.V.

I open the window and I gaze into the night

But there's nothing there to see, no one in sight

there's not a soul out thereno one to hear my prayer

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight

Won't somebody help me chase the shadows away

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight

Take me through the darkness to the break of the day

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight...

there's not a soul out thereno one to hear my prayer

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight

Won't somebody help me chase the shadows away

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight

Take me through the darkness to the break of the day

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight

Won't somebody help me chase the shadows away

Gimme gimme gimme a man after midnight

Take me through the darkness to the break of the day

Valkyries

2008-12-15T03:23:00.000-08:00

In Norse mythology the valkyries were minor female deities, who served Odin. The valkyries' purpose was to determine the victors of battles and wars, and to choose the most heroic of those who had died in battle. Freyja, called Mistress of the slain (Valfreyja) and of the Valkyries in general,[1] chose half of these fallen heroes for her hall Fólkvangr.[2][3] The rest went to Valhalla where they became einherjar. This was necessary because Odin needed warriors to fight at his side at the preordained battle at the end of the world, Ragnarök. In Valhalla the valkyries also “serve drink and look after the tableware and drinking vessels”.

Om Shanti OM

2008-12-14T17:42:00.001-08:00

Its a hindi movie about murder 30years in the past.okay its hard to explain you have to watch it if you are into hindi movies.It is the first hindi movie that scared me until i screamed.

2 day weekend.

2008-12-14T17:16:00.000-08:00

Freaky Fact this weekend:

Every 5 seconds,a baby is born.

Saturday was normal.Woke up at 12 plus and bath.Went out with my sister to Salvation Army to give books,bags,clothes,etc.Later we went to Yew Tee to get groceries.We waited for my mother in the ntuc for an hour.Walked around the pasar malam then went home.Just as we reach home,kak Nurhi asked us out to eat at Choa Chu Kang park.There we ate seafood fried rice,noodles and freid prawns.Daniel couldnt stop disturbing me and he couldnt stop talking/singing/praying out loud.We went to lot1 to walk around.I bought this super cute pencil case for school next year.Watched Om Shanti Om and The Darjeeling Limited.

Woke up on sunday by the song Om Shanti Om.My mom was watching it.Then we watched Mamma Mia again.I cannot get bored from watching that.The rest of the day was Tv and sleep.

I cant wait to get my allowance this thursday.

I've got a list of items i need to get before school starts.

Interesting towards the end

2008-12-12T05:02:00.000-08:00

Freaky Fact for the day:

New York:It is illegal to do anything against the law.

Asleep at 3am.Awake at 2pm.Draw the whole day.

I woke up so late today that the day seems so short.I met my sister at 5pm to go get food from the pasar malam and we sent the bicycles for repair.Then we cycle around the neigbourhood and came home.See how short my day is...and its upsetting too.I plan a day out for my cousins and it is so difficult!Movies are coming out on thursday and not everyone can make it.I was about to take them to watch centre of the earth in 3D.Well too bad!ERH.Anyways,missing you guys out there.
I bought christmas gitfs for my besties today and i cant wait to see them soon.I love holidays.You get to relax and chill and hang out with your family.But the one thing i cant stand is that you get bored and that is a problem and when we go out,you OBVIOUSLY tend to spend alot of money.Food,shop,etc.

End.

eyes to watch

2008-12-11T08:37:00.000-08:00

Freaky Fact for this post:

The average person laughs 15 times a day.

(Good to know)

MUST WATCH MOVIES THIS MONTH!

I heard twilight is a,how do i say this without hurting my ownself,it SUCKS!omg my heart/soul/whole body hurts!!!!But im not going to judge the movie without watching it first.
This movies looks good/funny/teen-romance.I want to watch this movie with Mich,Illya,Mel ang Eugenia.

I will watch this with anyone as long as i get to watch this.I mean watch this with anyone i know.

blahblahblah

2008-12-11T07:33:00.000-08:00

Freaky Fact of the day:

Pearls dissolve in vinegar.

My day was a bore and now im blogging too much.I'm starting to read the Freaky Fact Book fact by fact.I guess im learning alot.I just found out something that shocked the hell out of me.I just cant believe itspossible.Well,its not my problem.

I'm planning a cousins day out for girl cousins only.I hope this will work.Cousins out there if you read this and have not reply my message please reply NOW!I cant wait for that day but i hope EVERYONE,who was invited,can make it.Because i planned so hard for this.

As for my dear bestfriends out there.I'm missing you guys alot.The last time we went out altogether was fun and we should do it again but shop at a cheaper mall.I miss michelle and our bitch chat,illya and our open talks,melissa and our babbles,eugenia and our chitty-chats.

I just invaded Diandra's blog.haha.Love her loads and missing her too.There was this SUPER COOL FONTS.I just love them.Her blog is cool.I cant wait to see how she will react to my invation...

I'm watching Casper's Scare School on Disney Channel.Its so weird how scarying humans too much or too little will unbalance the balance thing between humans and "ghost".More like lame but yet im still watching it.I feel such a loser right now.I'm watching America's Next Top Model.I cant believe i forgot about it.

Im going to plan another sleepover/slumber party for my cousins and besties,seperately,before school starts,I've got two weeks if im not wrong,or around there.I miss Mira already and all the movies and family bonding we did with Amirul,Johan,AYDEN!!!

xoxoxo,GOODNIGHTS.

MAAARACKAP 2

2008-12-11T06:40:00.000-08:00

Madagascar in russian is "maaarackap".Anyways,Madagascar is a super hilarious movie and if you havent watch it i suggest you do. I almost died from laughing at it,seriously i mean it.ALex,Ben Stiller's voice,did the same dance moves as Ben did in the movie Zoolander.its hilarious.Anyways,i new the giraffe likes the hippo.SO SWEET!

bet you didnt know that......

2008-12-10T23:23:00.000-08:00

Here are some facts that you might not hear before.

it might be unbelieveable but you better believe it!

Freaky Fact 1:

Sheeps can recognise other sheeps from photographs.

Freaky Fact2:

Bees has 5 eyes.

Freaky Fact3:

Ancient Egypt:The penalty for killing a cat ,even by accident ,is death.

Freaky Fact 4:

Cleopatra was Greek ,not Egyptian.

Freaky Fact 5:

The story of Cinderella originated in China.

Freaky Fact 6:

Coca-cola was originally green.

Freaky Fact 7:IMPORTANT

DIAMONDS ARE FLAMMABLE.

Freaky Fact 8:

The largest continent is Asia.

Freaky Fact 9:

Candles burn better when they are frozen.

Freaky Fact 10:

There are more chickens in the world than humans.

My Favourite Fact:

Butterfly used to be called flutterbys.

These are only 11 freaky facts from the 1001 freaky facts book.

Will post more facts in the future!

laughing box

2008-12-09T23:17:00.000-08:00

how would you feel if one day you woke up and you couldnt laugh.the laughing organ in your body was gone because someone who you least excepted stole it from you.how would you feel and how far would you go to get it back?

2008-12-09T23:08:00.000-08:00

wanna watch "NOT ANOTHER CINDERELLA STORY"?

go to-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vHAOTiwgf4&feature=related

this is the trailer but the whole movie is on youtube if you guys want to watch it.

movie marathon

2008-12-09T22:49:00.000-08:00

movies i watched when i was away.

-the girl next door(sucks)
-mamma mia!(so sweet)
-what happens in vegas(romance,must watch)
-hancock(funny,must watch)
-save the last dance 2(so nice!!the dance was good and the guy was hot!)
-the prince and me 3(horrible,the first movie was the best)
-the clique(about friendship,funny yet sad)
-one missed call(scare the nuts out of me,go watch)
-not another cinderella story(super good,must watch.selena gomez is the main actress in this movie and she can dance!)
-igor(watched half way)

weekend away

2008-12-09T22:28:00.000-08:00

wondering why my blog is empty since i last posted.i was away in malaysia,kl for the weekend.left s'pore on saturday and reach the same day 4hours later.mira just woe up....she has prom on the 16december.im so excited for her.her school is a girls school and their prom is joined with a guys school.she update me on whats been going on in malaysia,her life actually.we didnt really do much.we sent mira's 500plus dress for dry-cleaning and went to bsc(bangsar shopping centre) which was just up the hill.i bought three magazines and tante ana went groceries shopping.mira bought valentino shoes for prom and lucky its on sale if not i would kill myself that she spent ALOT of money for prom.later tante ana sent mira and her friends to some girl's house.i was at the house reading magazines and mostly sleeping.

woke up ate dinner and follow fetch mira from this guys party.i was wearing my pj and its super embarrassing to go there to get mira out.the next day mira had tennis and piano class so i played the piano at the house untill she got back.later we went to bv(bangsar village) and got khaki pants and watched movies untill amirul came,aiddy was there too.we talked alot and ate alot too.

the next day was hari raya haji.we woke up and got dress.we celebrated at tante nona's house where we eat and bonded alot.abg danny sand us two songs from his album.SO SWEET.i cant wait for his album to come out.we later karaoke.it was sooo fun.it was the first time i sang infront of the family and it was okay.my voice sucks!later abg danny sent mira,amirul and i back to the house.we watched more movies and ate junk.went home the next day.

moonless night

2008-12-02T09:41:00.000-08:00

"You’re not asleep, and you’re not dead. I’m here, and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you that I didn’t want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy."

"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

Edward Cullen, New Moon

90210

2008-12-02T09:29:00.000-08:00

90210 is the best tv series show ever,unless they make a twilight series show.that would be the bomb!i have watched episodes 'till the 12th one.the 3rd episode is the only one i missed so far and i cant find it.humphf!annie is so cute with ethan and so is silver and dixon.i want to live their lives.rich,smart,beautiful,talented....hmmm...wow.imagine.well a girl can dream.anyways,i missed yesterday's show because my sister is overseas and she didnt ppay the freaking bill.wonderful!what am i suppose to do tmr?daydream and rot?LOVE 90210!

message to M

2008-12-02T09:23:00.000-08:00

michelle poon,you owe me a date!i miss you.up for milkshakes,movie marathon and gossip spill out session?we need to shop soon when we have money*KACHING*lets watch wild child and twilight!missing you loads babe::::)

twilight

2008-12-02T09:19:00.000-08:00

I knew it was working then, so I concentrated even harder, dredging up specific memories I’d saved for this moment, letting them flood my mind, and hopefully his as well. Some of the memories were not clear – dim human memories, seen through weak eyes and heard through weak ears: the first time I’d seen his face… the way it felt when he’d held me in the meadow… the sound of his voice through the darkness of my faltering consciousness when he’d saved me from James… his face as he waited under a canopy of flowers to marry me… every precious moment from the island… his cold hands touching our baby through my skin… And the sharp memories, perfectly recalled: his face when I’d opened my eyes to my new life, to the endless dawn of immortality… that first kiss… that first night…

Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn

what's next?

2008-12-02T08:52:00.000-08:00

weak i have been crying and crying for weeks

how'd i survive when i can barely speak

barely eat on my knees

but thats the moment you came to me

i dunt know what your loves done to me

think im invincible i see

through the me

i use to be

COUSINS

2008-12-02T07:25:00.000-08:00

HAZIM

HAZIQ

TOILET

2008-12-02T06:55:00.000-08:00

so its been awhile since i've blogged.cant blame a girl for wanting personal relax time.i've not been home for the past two weeks.stayed at my aunt's house at woodlands.BIG FUN!been watching movies and i missed my fav shows.im havent been watching 90210,need updating.my cousins have been very fun to take care off.the boys are twins,4-years-old,and the girl is 9.its like being a child again.play dress-ups and the playgrounds!my aunt is like my second mom and my cousin are like siblings to me.they adorable but boy they fight every minute of the day.

went to desaru on thursday.super fun.swam everyday when i was there but im NOT black.first day we went swimming and then walked around the area,ate dinner and watched channel 5.second day we woke up early and ate breakfast then swam at the beach,huge waves btw,and also the pool.then went on a half hour journey for lunch.later we rest and went to played pool and table tennis at the lobby.third day we went for breakfast and OH THERE WERE SUPER HOT GUYS from this school in singapore.some international mixed school.AMERICAN/BRITISH/others.HOTHOTHOT!couldnt help staring.after,we played pool again and the guys were hanging out at the lobby.super embarrassing to be playing likek an idiot infront of them.anyways then we took a ride around the area on thomas the train{COMES WITH A RINGING BELL!} before hitting the pool.later we make our way to the next hotel.its of the same company but this hotel was way more classy!!!!swam again before heading to JUSCO for dinner.i got new shoes to wear out!fourth day we ate macD in the hotel room before heading to the pool again.i met the king's children.king of johor(i think but im sure he's the king).later we pack up and check out!we went GIANT to get groceries and headed home.

im home now at cck.home sweet home?not exactly.im super lonely without my sister and cousins.my parents are asleep and there is no one home.quiet as hell,except for my blasting radio.i really miss my aunt's house.i miss my sister!she better bring home good gifts for me.will loads pics.

MICHELLE ILLYA MELISSA EUGENIA,
MISSING YOU GUYS LOADS!!!

tata,goodnight.
signing out
shazzzy

past week

2008-11-24T20:29:00.000-08:00

summary of what i did these few days.i've been at my cousin's house because my sister went to india and i dunt want to stay home alone.im going on a trip with my cousin's family and i cant wait for my sister to come home so i can get gifts.i need to do something with my hair.hari raya haji is coming and i might not be in singapore.thats sucks.BAND NIGHT is this saturday and wish i could go but family comes first and i need a holiday at the beach.i need to get away from all the stuff thats been happening before i have to deal with it when i come back.i hope next year will be much much better and i will gain the friends i lost and keep the friends who has been there for me.

18december is all im waiting for.twilight is the bomb.cant wait to watch it!!!!

missing mich,illya,mel and eugenia!you guys..........i need to go out with you soon.

breakeven

2008-11-09T22:30:00.000-08:00

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in

Cos I got time while she got freedom

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst

She finally met a man thats gonna put her 1st

While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you

What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your okay

I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason

But not wise words gonna stop the bleeding

Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you

What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your okay

I'm falling to pieces

One still in love while the other ones leaving

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain

You took your suitcase, I took the blame.

Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains

Cos you left me with no love, no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a god that I don't believe in

Cos I got time while she got freedom

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you

What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and your okay

I'm falling to pieces

One still in love while the other ones leaving

Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

forgive me

2008-11-09T22:23:00.000-08:00

There's a first time for everything

It's definitely one of them nights

I knew when I looked in his eyes

That he was gonna be trouble for me

I never wanted to lie

I knew that my baby would cry

If he knew what we were doing

But if his love don't pass the test

I gotta get it from somewhere else

When I'm gone and I need a man

Hope he understands

Forgive me baby

I gotta take a chance tonight

So I'm doing me, myself and I

Can wait no more

Sitting all alone

Man, I really hope

Hope you forgive me

I can wait no more

Man, I really hope

Hope you forgive me

Been a long time since I

Did something good for myself

But why should I be put through hell?

He's doing what he wanna do I finally found somebody else

Who really wants to make me feel

Things that I've been missing so long

And his love always passed the test

It's a shame I had to look somewhere else

When I'm gone and I need a man

I just hope that he understands

Forgive me baby

I gotta take a chance tonight

So I'm doing me, myself and I

Can wait no more

Sitting all alone

Man, I really hope

Hope you forgive me

I can wait no more

Man, I really hope

Hope you forgive me

Forgive me but I need to be loved too

Forgive me but I can't wait around for you

Forgive me if I found a man

Who understands just what I need

Forgive me but I need to be loved too

Forgive me if I can't wait around for you

Forgive me if I found a man who understands

Forgive me baby I gotta take a chance tonight

So I'm doing me, myself and I

Can wait no more

Sitting all alone

Man, I really hope

Hope you forgive me

I can wait no more

Man, I really hope

Hope you forgive me

I gotta take a chance tonight

So I'm doing me, myself and I

Can wait no more

Sitting all alone

Man, I really hope

Hope you forgive me

make it mine

2008-11-09T22:13:00.000-08:00

Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you
Listen to your voice
The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue
Lip and the net will appearI don't wanna wake before
The dream is over
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes i...
I know it
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes I'll make it all mine
I keep my life on a heavy rotation
Requesting that it's lifting you up
Up up and away
And over to a table at the gratitude cafe
And I am finally there
And all the angels they'll be singing
Ah la la la ah la la la
I la la la la love you
I don't wanna break before
The tour is over
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes i...i know it
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes I'll make it all mine
And timing's everything
And this time there's plenty
I am balancing
Careful and steady
And reveling in energy that everyone's emitting
I don't wanna wait no more
No I wanna celebrate the whole world
I'm gonna make it mine
Because I'm following your joy
I'm gonna make it mine
Because I...
I am open
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes I...
I'm gonna show it
Yes I'm gonna make it mine
It's mine...
Yes I will make it all mine

update!

2008-11-09T21:36:00.000-08:00

monday
i had my super important exam.pressure!anyways went out with michelle to cine leisure.took neoprints haha.it was the best time ever!i will post the neoprints soon.we drank twice at koufo or whatever you name it.we saw the hottest american/australian guys!wooh they wow.

tuesday
finally watched HSM3!!!!omg troy is the hotest guy ever!i so want the soundtrack!imy sister and i brought my cousin to watch hsm but before that we took the car for service so we have to take the bus to plaza sing.the cinema was empty!only two rows were filled with people.haha.my sister and i had fun taking the double decker bus,snapping photos.my cousin had fun too.she was imagining she was riding a rollercoaster.loser!

wednesday
went to school to colllect 'the results'.i was 20mins late for school.i was super happy with my results.illya michelle and i are going to be in the same class,AGAIN!haaah.mel and eugenia got into 3/4 and 3/6.good for them.smart asssss!!!maria,illya,anne,michelle,eugenia and i went to take neoprints.i look horrible!yuck!we had fun though and we spent time together!

thursday
MOVIE MARATHON!i woke up early to do a quick clean up and then went to get movies.melissa,michelle and eugenia came and we watched dont mess with the zohan.we were grossed out!disgusted but hilarious.then we watched prom night.screaming!stupid detective called for backups and the stupid backups never arrive on time.the detective's backups were one or two cops.idiotic and the girl had to go up to the hotel room alone.ah!dramatic.last movie was hottie and nottie.it was boring but romantic chick flick.mich mel eug ate dinner at my house and went home.

friday
cycle!i met my cousin and boyfriend,ika and hafiz.we made our way to pasir ris to meet michelle,eugenia and francesca.we bought macs breakfast and we took off to pasir ris beach.it was super empty.no one noboby none.we ate then went to rent the bicycle.we cycled the whole of pasir ris beach.we played at the park,swinged alot.kaka ika wanted to get off the dish thing but michelle wouldnt stop spinning it.

kak ika:i want to get off,what if i fall?
michelle:(spinning the dish)you wont,trust me.
SPLAT!kak ika fell off the dish.

i was on the swing laughing away.haha.we saw a fat apek trying to spin himself on the dish.i was a horrid sight.on the train.mich and i had the funniest conversation.we speak in ms swan's voice.it was funny.she dared me to speak in ms swan's voice super loud.the was this girl who stared at me with this most hilarios stare.we laughed so loud and we couldnt stop.eugenia got embarrassed.she fell asleep minutes later.i will post the pics soon(:

decode

2008-10-31T03:19:00.000-07:00

How can I decide what's right?

When you're clouding up my mind

Can't win your losing fight all the time

Not gonna ever own what's mine

When you're always taking sides

You wont take away my pride

No not this time

Not this time

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood,
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own
(I'm screaming "I love you so..." But my thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I use to know you so well

I think I know
I think I know
There is something that I see in you
It might kill me I want it to be true

murphy dried mangoes

2008-10-29T22:07:00.000-07:00

R.I.P

Murphy Dried Mangoes

29oct2008

i found out last night that murphy died

when it got its injection that was suppose to make it healthier.

the vet said it was given birth too young and its not strong enough

without its mother.i dunno where its mother is.

my sister found murphy by the road side,alone,near a construction site.

its mother could have died too by now.

well,i cant do anything now but pray for murphy.

cycled

2008-10-29T08:07:00.000-07:00

i cycled tonight.shari called me at minah just because i cycle at night.

that is soooo not cool shari!

just go run along and go get busy with you schedule,

remember to save some time for me next week!shari,you rock!

anyways,i cycle into a lampost,rubbish bin,metal box and all sorts or things.you name it,i crash into it.

i fell so many times,i got tired of laughing at myself.

my sister wasnt much help,she just say look foward!

today sucks for me yet very satisfying.

petrina chia got on my nerves but its okay.

let her do whatever she wants as long as she is happy.

anne and michelle are my guru!i should learn stuff from them.they rock!i cant wait to go out with you guys!shop talk eat cycle!yay.goodnight now.

michelle,anne and everyone else who'e there for me

2008-10-29T08:03:00.001-07:00

you guys are the bomb!i donno what i will do without you.you make me feel way much better and i am so thankful and honoured.michelle,anne,you guys make me smile and laugh even when i am fill with tears.i love you guys alot!shari,christine,i never thought you guys would back up on me and for that you guys are who i will treasure more from now on!you guys are the bomb!!!!im just so thankful towards you guys.I LOVE YOU!

revenge is bittersweet

2008-10-29T07:52:00.000-07:00

well oh well.it seems like you made the wrong decision to mess with someone who you say has a "gang".thats nice,because my "gang" is here for me and i am soooo thankful for that.my "gang" is something you should have because right now..it doesnt seem like anyone is there for you.you may think you're some big shot in school but deep down i guess you're some pathetic girl who is ashmed of being laughed and make fun of.you hurt and thats what you get in return.so have fun while you still can because this is not over.
(you can cry all you want because this girl is not done with you)

lucky

2008-10-29T00:19:00.000-07:00

Do you hear me,

I'm talking to you

Across the water across the deep blue ocean

Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams

I feel your whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes

Waiting for a long like this

Every time we say goodbye

I wish we had one more kiss

I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

Lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea

To an island where we'll meet

You'll hear the music fill the air

I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees

Move so pretty you're all I see

As the world keeps spinning round

You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

Lucky to have been where I have been

Lucky to be coming home again

I'm lucky we're in love every way

Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

its done and over

2008-10-29T00:07:00.000-07:00

Does the fear of loneliness cause me to be with a person who hurts me

Does the fear of loneliness cause me to care for a person who only deceives me

Does this phobia cause me to dwell in the past, making it so hard to move on

Does this phobia cause me to depend on someone,

Only to find out that that someone is independent

In reality, now I can't depend on anyone else, neither myself

In my state of loneliness, everyone else is paired

Am I the only one who suffers by themselves?

So should I be content with one who doesn't make me happy

Should I be content with another who creates sadness?

For if am alone, there is the possibility of emptiness in my heart

If I am alone, I see the impossibility of ever smiling

I am afraid of being alone

michelle

2008-10-28T22:53:00.000-07:00

thanks for being there when i needed you.

you've been the bestest best friend seen i've known you and thats what im truly thankful for.

i love you babe!thanks for everything.

teaching me piano and how to cycle.

helping me during my time of need and taking care of me.

thanks!i hope we'll never part.

CYCLING

2008-10-27T08:16:00.000-07:00

LOVED TODAY!I LEARN HOW TO CYCLE.IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!FINALLY!ARH!

ANYWAYS,THE REST HAD TO PUT UP WITH ME STOPPING EVERY 5MINS UNTIL THE POINT I GOT THE HAND OF IT AND I WENT WAY FASTER THAN THEM BUT I ALWAYS BANG INTO SOMETHING WHICH LEADS TO ME LANDING ON MY BUTT.OH STUPID MATS IN YELLOW LAUGHED AT ME WHEN I FELL BUT ITS OKAY I LAUGHED WITH THEM.HAHA OKAY.I WISH I TOOK A VIDEO OH MYSELF.IT WOULD BE DAMN HILARIOUS I SWEAR.WE PLAYED AT THE PLAYGROUND.IT WAS SUPER FUN FUN!THERE WAS THIS DISH SIDE-WAYS THING WHICH WAS SCARY BUT FUN AND I FELL OUT OF IT TRYING TO GET OFF.SIGH.I LOVED TODAY AND STILL LOVING IT.LOVE YOU SPARS!

THEN MEL'S MOM SENT US TO PASIR RIS MRT

WHERE WE MADE OUR WAY TO VIVO CITY.

EUGENIA FELL ASLEEP ON ME IN THE MRT.SPARSTIC.

WE TRIED TAKING A PICTURE BUT SHE WOKE UP.WELL,ITS OKAY.

AT VIVO WE WENT TO DIVA THEN FOS THEN SOME MORE SHOPS AT HAOURFRONT BEFORE MY SISTER FETCH US.WENT HOME THEN!

MY SIS AND I FETCH MY GRANNY.

I WORE SHORTS SO THE FIRST THING MY GRANNY SAID TO ME WAS

"LISTEN TO ME,NEXT TIME DUNT WEAR SHORTS.MUST COVER UP.GIRLS SHOULDNT WEAR LIKE THIS,GUYS CAN GO AROUND NAKED AND NOBOBY CARES."

I WAS LIKE ARE YOU SERIOUS?BUT MY GRANNY KNOWS BEST!

WELL SMS-ED SHARI.SHE'S THE BOMB!

LOVE HER TO BITS!

THAT REMINDS ME I NEED TO POST A POST GOING OUT TO ARIAGA AND SHARI.

LOVE YOU GUYS BOTH!

NIGHTS!

POSTED PHOTOS!

2008-10-27T07:59:00.000-07:00

PICTURES;

THERE WERE LEAVES FALLING FROM THE TREES.

IT WAS PRETTY.

PRETTY IN PINK(:

SEE THE STORM COMING?

THIS IS A NICE PHOTO.

LOOK!

ITS MEGAN,MELISSA'S YOUNGER SISTER.

DOUBLE OOPS

ME AND MICHELLEY.

M CUBE=MICHELLE,MEGAN,MELISSA

S=SHAZWANA

E=EUGENIA

SAT,25oct

2008-10-27T07:39:00.000-07:00

BIG FAMILY DAY OUT TO MALAYSIA

TANJONG PIAI
IT WAS SUPER DUPER FUN.A DAY OUT WITH THE FAMILY.I MEAN HOW OFTEN DO YOU DO THAT RIGHT?ANYWAYS,THE WALK THROUGH THE MANGROVE THING WAS INTERESTING..I GUESS.MY FAMILY ARE REALLY LOUD PEOPLE SO DUNT EXCEPT THEM TO KEEP QUIET IN NATURE.MY MOM WAS SCREAMING,MY UNCLE WAS SINGING SUPER LOUD AND MY BABY COUSINS AND BROTHER WERE SHOUTING TO EACH OTHER.THEY ONLY ONES QUIET WERE MY SISTER AND I WHO WERE APPRECIATING NATURE.
LATER WE WENT FOR LUNCH AT KUKUP.WE ATE SEAFOOD!ANYWAYS,MY BABY COUSINS WERE IN A BAD MOOD SO THEY WERE SULKING AND CRYING ALOT.
LATER WE MADE OUR WAY TO JUSCO AT JOHOR,WHERE I BOUGHT TWO NEW SET OF BRA WITH MATCHING UNDERWEAR!SO HAPPY.OH AND I BOUGHT GUM!THEN WE MADE OUR WAY HOME.
IT WAS A DAY TO BE REMEMBERED.

twilight

2008-10-26T18:53:00.000-07:00

must watch!

THE CULLENS
(im guessing,from left to right,emment,rosalie,esme,edward,carlisle,alice,jasper)

the script

2008-10-26T18:50:00.000-07:00

"The End Where I Begin"

Sometimes tears say all there is to say
Sometime your first scars wont ever fade, away
Tried to break my heart
Well it's broke
Tried to hang me high
Well I'm choked
Wanted rain on me
Well I'm soaked
Soaked to the skin

It's the end where I begin
It's the end where I begin

Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes
Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away, away
Tried to break my heart
Well it's broke
Tried to hang me high
Well I'm choked
Wanted rain on me
Well I'm soaked
Soaked to the skin

It's the end where I begin
It's the end where I begin

Now I'm alive
and my ghosts are gone
I've shed all the pain
I've been holding on
The cure for a heart
Is to move along, is to move along
So move along[X3]
What don't kill a heart
Only makes it strong

Sometimes tears say all there is to say
Sometime your first scars dont ever fade, away
Tried to break my heart
Well it's broke
Tried to hang me high
Well I'm choked
Wanted rain on me
Well I'm soaked Soaked to the skin

It's the end End where I begin
It's the endEnd where I begin
Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes
Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away, away

HANGING

2008-10-26T00:57:00.000-07:00

give me something to work

on so i could move on with my life.

a sign,a note,a symbol?something.

dunt leave me hanging,waiting for you.

BEST FRIENDS

2008-10-26T00:28:00.000-07:00

To: Michelle,Melissa,Illya,Eugenia
(love you guys no matter waht happens.)

Looking back through the years,

I can't believe how long

We have been best friends,

Through good times and bad.

When I needed someone to cry,

With me and laugh together

Give me a shoulder to lean on,

And a hug to make me feel better.

You know how true it is,

When you know that no matter what

Happens or goes on down the road,

That there will always be best friends.

So as time passes and days go by,

Just remember that when you need me

That no matter what time or place,

I will always be there by your side, my best friend.

WAITING

2008-10-26T00:18:00.000-07:00

With out a thought to spare.

My life seems incomplete,

since you left me in despair.

I'm tangled up in you,

With the thoughts of our past,

I try not to reminisce

but my mind moves to fast.

In my dreams I am lost in your eyes.

I'm swallowed by your smile.

I'm tortured by your lies.

I'm tangled up in you.

Whatever you have done?

What spell have you cast?

What game have you won?

I'm tangled up in you.

Reminded of your laughter

Not to have forgotten your silence

My heart broken with your slander.

I'm tangled up in you.

Warmed by your kisses

Missing your skilled touch

Casting pennies while making silent wishes.

I'm tangled up in you.

Longing for your return.

Your fingers laces in between mine.

When will I ever learn?

I'm tangled up in you.

But you have since forgotten.

My posts never answered.

Your heart is not wanting

I'm tangled up in you.

Dreaming of our future

Even though you're just my memory.

My heart still tortured...

2008-10-25T23:50:00.000-07:00

i love michelle!

this is the wall that michelle insisted

that the material of her wallet could

stick to but the wallet was so stubborn. whoever these mats were,sorry i took a picture.

aunty michelle

tahahahah.oops

if this was a video it was hilarious

candid we were fooling around with our reflections before the mrt came

michelle's crown

22 october o8

2008-10-25T23:43:00.000-07:00

last day of school and 2/7-ners didnt cry at all.all the other sec 2s cry.awww.illya michelle and i went to clarke quay after school.it was hilarious.at first we could not find the water area so we decided to walk around that "new" shopping mall.shops there are okay but expensive.once we found the water place,which was outside the mall,it started to drizzle.haha what luck then we went to eat at burger king.the guy at the counter,wah damn flirt with illya.michelle was our king.the crown was super big and so was michelle's burger!then we walked around again and went home.

SNAPPED!

2008-10-09T05:57:00.000-07:00

2008-10-09T05:52:00.000-07:00

these are few photos of me and my cousins when we're young and i was a retard toddler.

JAM!

2008-10-09T05:26:00.000-07:00

last exam for the year!ahh!!!wooh im so happy.we went to maria's house to jam.well not me but the other freaking talented people.stuuupid.well who cares im like freeee and i know how to play one step at a time on the piano!yay!we had way tooo much fun at maria's house.gabby played the drums,michelle played the guitar and sing and as for me....i became the back-up.heh.my voice sucks but who cares,no one can hear except gabby,michelle,illya and maria.MARIA and GABBY are such good players!they were awesome!maria can play crushcrushcrush so well i swear you had to be the.well i had alot of laughs today.love you guys and thanks for making my day!

LOST

2008-10-09T05:01:00.000-07:00

i expected more from you and all you do is to let it be the way it is now?i guess it okay for you too just walk pass me,not saying a single word or even a smile?i guess i've learnt to just keep it to myself.no ones wants to listen and no one cares.i've tried talking to you but im always getting the cold shoulders.i messaged and you dunt seem to be interested.its okay i guess.its what you want and i have to deal with it.sometimes i feel im not needed in your life anymore so if its the end,just end it.if its not,i need something to show me that im still needed or wanted in your life.im leaving this up to you..

LD camp!

2008-09-04T04:53:00.000-07:00

reached school at 710am.

no one was there so i waited,alone.

blahblahblah.

ld started around 8plus.

we did some warm-ups before we were spilt into groups.

im in the red team and we called ourselves the "RED INDIANS".

i got spilt up from finaz.our cheer rocks.

we did our sheild/spirit thing/if-you-lose-it-we-will-minus-stickers-thing.

first game was the treasure hunt.

we work well as a team.

theres trust!go team!

we ran all over the school.

then we had to lie on the floor in th pa room and close our eyes.

all lights off and we had to visualize the so called "story" amanda was telling us.

i fell asleep after she said something in the forest or jungle.

later they had lunch.finaz,qistina and i stayed in the pa room to sleep.

after lunch we had this talk about epic theatre then we got spilt up into two big groups.

white and yellow,green,red and blue.

oh since ariaga was in blue but she wore red house tee and i was in red but i wore blue tee,we decided to support each others team."GO BLUE,GO RED".

when we had our physical theatre(something like that)we had to move alot!

then i partner with ariaga and we danced.

it was hilarious.

later we had improvisation.

creating scenes and tabloo/taboo(whatever).

it was fun.

our over-all performance was great.

people laugh and hopefully they got our message.

once camp ended,

finaz and i went to the blue colour shop to get hairbands and stuff.

then HOME!

2008-09-02T22:04:00.000-07:00

(my brothers)

(we were riding a train!)

(im in the far right in the white top)

i found these photos in my aunts old albums

2008-09-02T21:54:00.000-07:00

the next video is so lame but funny

2008-09-02T21:41:00.000-07:00

2008-09-02T21:38:00.000-07:00

“Don’t suck your thumb,”

my mother said.

I answered, “Why?”

and scratched my head.

She said, “It’s dumb!

Now go to bed.”

That night I sucked

my toe instead.

2008-09-02T21:21:00.000-07:00

2008-09-02T21:07:00.000-07:00

Star light, star bright,

first star I see tonight,

I’m going to try with all my might

to keep my jammies dry all night.

1 SEPTEMBER 2008

2008-09-02T20:42:00.000-07:00

since no one ever views my blog,

i decided to post all the unglam photos i snapped on this day.

1september2008 is also the start of fasting month.

so far its been okay.

i can last the whole day.

on monday,i met michelle to go see her dentist,who happens to be the church friend's uncle,the place is so cool and small.the area looks very rich.then we met melissa and summer in school to do our drama script and stuff.we didnt do much and end up talking about our religions.when gabby and peck played badminton,we joined.i didnt played much,no energry.snapped some photos.finish with drama,we made our way to j8 then to mel's house to watch WALL-E.to me the movie is boring but i had fun though.

here are the photos and the video i made of that day(:

2008-08-16T06:16:00.000-07:00

PICTURES!

actually its suppose to say i love pet but i dunno how to edit an edit-ed photo but ILOVEPET,MYSTEAD!

PRETTY:D

COUSIN'S WEDDING NIGHT

KIM'S PARTY

BYE FATIN...

INTER-CLASS COMPETITION

2006(FATIN,ATIQAH&SOMEONE)

FATIN&ME

EUGENIA&FATIN

MELISSA&FATIN

MICHELLE&FATIN

O8O8O8

2008-08-16T06:09:00.000-07:00

THIS IS ME-CAMP ROCK

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I'm gonna let it show
It's time to let you know
to let you know

This is real
This is me
I'm exactly where

I'm supposed to be now

Gonna let light shine on me

Now I've found who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I wanna be

This is me

Do you know what it's like

To feel so in the dark

To dream about a life

Where you're the shining star

Even though it seems

Like it's too far away

I've got to believe in myself

It's the only way

This is real

This is me

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now

Gonna let light shine on me

Now I've found who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I wanna be

This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head

The reason that I'm singing

I need to find you

I gotta find you

You're the missing piece I need

The song inside of me

I need to find you

I gotta find you

This is real

This is me

I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now

Gonna let light shine on me

Now I've found who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I wanna be

This is me

You're the missing piece I need

The song inside of me

This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head

The reason that I'm singing

Now I've found who I am

There's no way to hold it in

No more hiding who I wanna be

This is me

first in a long time

2008-08-16T05:45:00.000-07:00

"Have you ever felt so in love

that you cant stop thinking about the person

and all you want to do is to see that person?

think about it......"

Anyways,today kinda sucks.my whole saturday is filled with classes.damn sucky.my whole week(from wednesday) was fun.i laughed and i guess i was happy no matter whatever bad happen.thats good.my birthday rocks.thanks everyone!!!i have nothing much to write.i really need to talk to illya and melissa but i dunt want to talk to anyone right now.im not in the mood.this freaking person is ignoring me.whatever im not going to care.i think im just going to sleep after im done with this.miss fatin!im going to upload pictures later.happy looking at it later.talk to mel this morning.dirty little secret...i want to pierce my ears.i am mentally prepared already so i have to do it before the preparation i did goes away.i want to go shopping and watch movies.

im sorry my blogs been dead.

im just so lazy to update it.

ill try to do it every weekend.

sorry people.

THANKS TO THE PEOPLE WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND GAVE ME PRESENTS.THANKS FOR REMEMBERING.THANKS!